Anna

15

suspension

if you could pick a day
any day
just one day
Which would you choose?
not today
a nothing day
another summer
when that month
spent in European luxury
seems years away
already
fading fast
when everyone you know is
away
too busy to text
too busy to care
and the threat of
impending academia
looms on the horizon
twenty days
now nineteen
when its too hot to stay inside
and too cold to swim
the cold front
they promised
can’t come soon enough
already
you crave winter
the cold sting of frost
and snow that whispers
as it melts the mascara
so painstakingly applied
and yet you
fight against the image
knowing with it comes
long days spent trudging across campus
nights spent in your dorm room
alone
without food
you’re too tired
to start the trek to the dining hall
wishing this year isn’t the same as last
wishing
with all your heart
for summer to bring
its bittersweet sweaty caress

would you choose today?
a day spent bathing in
nostalgia
suspended in a paradox
would today be
your forever?