Aurora

The essential dilemma of my life is ... should I torture myself and try to make myself focus on one juicy function to concentrate my nectars in one delicious but difficult and slavishly dedicated opus that would be like the guy being blown away
by the stereo on the couch, except me to humanity, or continue on the fayrie path of least resistance and greatest rapturous bliss in each moment forgoing material foundation with the glee of being? or randomly doing what I feel like? And if yes to the first part how do I pull it off?