Hope

i am In love with my great love and processing the break up 1.5 years later, thinking of him and what I could say to him to change things daily; currently dating the "great on paper" type of guy - distressed by the torn feeling of uncertainty about my future with him. I have an absent father. I see my mother in pain often. I have gained weight recently. I feel uninspired. I am a perfectionist. I want to start grown-up life. Doing well on the journey of piecing myself back together, feeling alive.